AHHHH! Life has been really busy recently and with Dogs That Dine ever closer, I’ve been really stressed putting everything together. I’ve been having a lot of moments where I’ve been doubting myself and my abilities which really frustrates me. I think I’m so desperate for everyone to have an amazing time and I’ve taken that weight upon my shoulders. Anyway, I’m sure it will be fine (I’m uttering that phrase several times a day just now). Here’s what I’ve been up to in the past week that hasn’t been dog related..
Teach Me About Tartan!
I’m a trained Highland dancer (yep, I can do the fling and dance around swords) so I grew up with traditional Scottish tartan dominating half my wardrobe with all the different kilts I had for various competitions. I ended up not liking tartan that much to be honest. Anyway, there was an event at Anta and the only words I heard were: after hours shopping, prosecco and cake. I was THERE!
The store was really nice – not the kind of place your bank balance would appreciate – but really interesting. None of the tartans they offered were what I would class as obvious and there were a few that were really pretty (I’ve got my eye on quite a few blankets). Of course, being a lover of tea I couldn’t stay away from the mugs. I don’t even need a new mug but I’m Scottish, so I should at least have one mug with a thistle on it…right?!
I’ve been struggling to sleep a lot recently and I think that’s down to a combination of things, but mainly the fact I’m waiting on a transplant keeps me awake at night. It’s not so much the actual operation because I’ve been there, done that (although I know as the operation date gets sooner, it will play on my mind). It’s more about the donor..
I was chatting with my doctor this week and telling him how I’m feeling. I’m literally sitting waiting on someone dying. To know a family are going to go through heartache makes me feel awful because I feel like I’m almost wishing that would happen. I’m perfectly aware of how illogical my thoughts are. I know I have no control over when death comes knocking and the fact that someone’s dying wish will be to donate their corneas – a selfless act that will be the greatest gift I’ve ever received – is an incredible thing.
I know I overthink things and I really wish I didn’t. I took to watching TV and having one of my favourite shows playing in the background that I would just focus on until I was off in the land of nod. Not the best idea but sometimes, it works. Then I found a tea that put my TV tactic to shame (look out for my upcoming Tea of the Month post!) and I’ve started to meditate every night which helps sometimes but I guess there’s no miracle cure. If anyone has any advice, I’d really appreciate it.
Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow
My hair has been driving me crazy for a long time and I’m the first to admit: I’m guilty of neglect. Usually I’m the first to book an appointment when the split ends are starting to rear their ugly heads but I had no idea what I wanted to do with my hair anymore. I was beyond bored of the blonde, I was bored of the cut and I felt like it was time for a change. I just didn’t know what that change was.
I decided it was time to embrace a bob! I’m not sure where the idea came from (or whether my desire to remove any last trace of blonde took over) but I thought my hair could do with it. Before I even had time to reconsider, I heard the first snip. Oh well, there was no turning back!
And the end result?! I love it! It looks so much better and I’m really impressed with the cut. It’s still longish enough to style but I can’t just tie it back on days I can’t be bothered (dreading those days). I thought Mr Blues would be more shocked because it’s quite a transformation (or at least I thought so) but nope, his reaction wasn’t nearly as theatrical as I thought it would be (maybe I was thinking about how I would feel if he cut his long hair!). He loves it though and actually prefers it, which is just nice to hear but it’s not the be all and end all. It was getting cut no matter what anyone thought! It’s nice to get a compliment though….I’ll take that.
And that’s my week in a nutshell! What have you been up to?